uh...

I've got one major complaint.

Since when did writing backstories for characters become so hard? If you haven't already figured out by now, some of the secrets and past that they hold aren't happy-happy-joy-joy types (whether or not you'd think of it as sad or "hey tough break!" remains to be seen lol) but still it's never been so ... hard to write such things before. Well not the last time I wrote such stuff anyway.

It's like I literally put off completing the backstory of one of the characters the whole of last night because I was literally afraid of what I'd write down... eventhough I KNOW what I write down. It's super idiotic isn't it? It's like I tried and it was suchhh an emotional weighdown that at one point I thought I'd actually cry. Which I never do with my characters. NEVER.

AND I'M NOT EVEN WRITING THE STORY YET!! IMAGINE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I DO!!

So I told myself that I'd wait till today to re-try and uhm...

I think I'm going to cry AGAIN.

Do writers actually cry when they write their characters? Coz it'd be comforting to know if I'm not abnormal XD

And then I get paranoid that if I connect with these characters so well, understand their pain so well... that if I don't bring them across beautifully in the stories, readers won't connect with them... and then that's just emotionally crushing as a writer. boo.

Oh-kay. Maybe I should switch characters. But I don't think that'd work...

Major roadblock!!

Maybe I should pick up the pen, scribble to complete in the 30 seconds and beat the tears to my cheeks! Mwahahahaha. -.-