Monday, June 20, 2011

I'm back from the dead!

Metaphorically speaking, that is.

So I've been gone from this blog for about a month; the first week was spent packing for my trip back home to Malaysia, the next two weeks were spent in Germany (if anyone is thinking of travelling to Europe, please go there! Especially to the Southern parts, the scenery is incredible) and the last week was spent reading and remembering what it's like to imagine whole new book-worlds (an experience I've not had in a prettty long time unfortunately).

So yes, I've not made much actual headway into any of my WIPs in the past month. However, this past month has reconnected me to the spirit of good story-telling; the highlight of my Germany trip was this one point in time where I was sitting in the coach and staring at Neuschwanstein Castle (go Google it!) through the windows, deep in thought.

I remembered thinking: Wow, so this is what a real castle looks like. If I were a princess, would I both love and hate this place? Love it because it's so beautiful but hate it because it'd be so confining and I wanted to see the real world out there? If I were a servant and hated this place, could I ever run away? That forest surrounding the castle looks prettty darn thick, the mountain looks darn steep, and it must be a good hour away by foot to travel from the castle to the village on the valley below...

... And what I would think next would never be known because I was yelled at to "get off the bus! We're going to climb to the castle now!" -.-

Reading has done its bit as well; it's made me remember what makes a good story and what doesn't. Incidentally, if anyone wants book recommendations, I have two! Both read during the past week and both listed on my Goodreads account :)

The Shakespeare CurseThe Shakespeare Curse by J.L. Carrell

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This is supposed to be a sequel to "The Shakespeare Secret" but it can act as a stand-alone novel since the plots aren't related.

That said, one of the things I liked about this book was the way Carrell handled the relationship between the two protagonists (the relationship started midway through "The Shakespeare Secret" and continues in this novel). Whereas Dan Brown has a propensity to underdevelop the connection between characters who are thrown together to survive against a psycho killer, Carrell does a pretty good job at probing this connection without sacrificing the quick pace that is the hallmark of a thriller plot. I also like how Carrell explores the impact of traumatic events on the characters (something else Brown doesn't really do with Robert Langdon).

The only thing that detracted from a four stars rating was that there were times where I felt that there was an overload of on-the-side historical information that slowed the pace of the plot and detracted from the crucial line of thought of the main character. In terms of this, I felt that "The Shakespeare Secret" was the superior novel: its story was tighter.

Overall, this is a pretty good read and I would recommend it to anyone who loves thrillers based on loopholes in history.
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I Shall Wear Midnight (Tiffany Aching, #4) (Discworld, #38)I Shall Wear Midnight (Tiffany Aching, #4) by Terry Pratchett
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I have to say that this has got to be one of my favourite Discworld books; I like practically all the Discworld books but this is definitely in my top ten :)

In "I Shall Wear Midnight", Pratchett does what he does best: witty footnotes, wordplay, tongue-in-cheek humour but what I absolutely loved about this book was how Pratchett dealt with Tiffany growing up, which came as a pleasant blindside to me. I've read my fair share of coming-of-age stories and I have to say that this is one of the best I've seen; Pratchett doesn't come off as too preachy and heavy-handed.

Suprisingly (again) the thread of romance in this book is good as well: it's not that main plot but it has a deeper insight into the why of romantic relationships than most romance novels I've read. The gems of wisdom about life Pratchett sows throughout the story is also as good as ever.

In short, this is supposed to be a book for teenage readers; I say it's a good read for all ages! The characters that Pratchett create are real and the story, engaging :)
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I'm now reading Game of Thrones, and I have to say IT IS AMAZING SO FAR! It's been a long time since I've read good high fantasy novels (I'm not sure why I call it high fantasy but what I mean by it is fantasy that is Lord of the Rings-esque type with  breathtaking landscapes filled with in-depth descriptions of mountains, valleys, rivers, swamps, forests, the whole she-bang) but I think I've found a winner and a keeper! Now the only thing I've got to do is get the rest of the books in the series and get my hands on the HBO series of Game of Thrones (which is also spectacular if hearsay is to be believed :D)

Anyway, I think I have, in my mind, the ghost of next week's blog post so I shall see you then :) 

Saturday, May 7, 2011

my fury at (some) characters in (some) literature

If you have no qualms about any characters in literature past and present, it might be a good idea to click the red X button on the top right hand corner of the screen instead of reading on.

Right! Where do I even begin?

Okay maybe I shall start here: There seems to be this current trend of having characters who are romantically obsessed with the male/female lead of the story. This trend has made me literally toss books back onto stores' bookshelf because I cannot ever be pulled into stories like that

Look, I know I've said that I'm not a huge lover of romance novels and therefore I may not be the right person to be commenting about what constitutes as romance and what doesn't, but come on! I do not think that obsessing over someone is romantic at all! In fact, I think it's downright creepy! I believe the term "stalker" applies.

Also, the way these characters are portrayed; as people who have two-dimensional personalities because they don't have a life other than just obsessing and fantasizing over their romantic interests, just infuriates me because every fibre of my being thinks that nobody on earth exists solely just to obsess over another person, everybody has a life and everybody has their own personalities, fears and goals!
 
On a side note, I hate female characters who do absolutely peanuts to improve their situation because they believe that their male romantic interest will come and save them. Give me any book that reads like that and I won't bother reading it; much less recommend it.
 
Look, I'm not someone who thinks males don't have the right to exist. I'm just someone who thinks that girls are strong enough to stand up for what they believe is worth fighting for; that girls don't need a "someday my prince will come and rescue me" reprise in the background because they can rescue themselves and kick some butts while they're at it, thank you very much! Give me a book with those kind of girls and I'd love it. Give me a book with a weak, insipid heroine (wait, is she even worthy to be called a heroine?!) and I'd chuck it in the bin.
 
Yes, I know, sometimes it is nice and romantic to sort of sit and think of a guy faraway who will come and rescue you from your humdrum life (only God knows how many times I'm guilty of this lol) but you know what? I'm going to fight whatever battles come my way regardless; I'm not going to put my life on hold for the dude!
 
Right! Now on to my next main gripe.
 
I do NOT understand why there seems to be this notion that close guy friends of a girl must either turn out to be a gay friend (who knows how to pick pretty dresses for said girl to impress her romantic interest *rolls eyes*) or be in love with the girl. Why can't guy friends just be a straight, guy friend? Personally, I love it when authors chuck a guy and a girl together as friends and just enjoy what's birthed out of that friendship. After all, a girl-girl friendship is a relationship with different dynamics as compared to a girl-guy friendship and I love seeing both types of relationships done well :)
 
Even if the guy friend has to fall in love with the girl, why can't authors explore it in more detail in other creative ways? Rather than just a: Ben had always been in love with Pauline but could never admit it type of thing? Why not something along the lines of: they had always been friends since kids, but now in adulthood, something changed; they had a new outlook on that person?
 
Okay, now that I've gotten that off my chest, I shall rally on with my thesis. I will again take my leave for the next two weeks ... by the end of which I would have officially finished my thesis wahoo!
 
P.S. - Sorry about the whole rant thing but these trends have really been getting on my nerves; particularly this week when I keep seeing reminders of them everywhere I look. -_-
 

Monday, May 2, 2011

a breather :)

So I'm back again after taking a month off to focus on my thesis and oh boy, what a ride it has been! I've never written non-stop for a full week straight, 12pm-2am like clockwork. On a side note, the Lipton tea company must've loved the fact that I avidly consumed their green tea product the whole time; there's nothing like cradling a warm mug of tea and deeply inhaling its comforting scent. I feel like I slip into 'zen' mode whenever that happens :)

Anyway, enough about my weird cravings for green tea, on to business for the day. Let's talk about my weird ways of getting inspiration instead :D

I was walking to work this morning, like I always do unless it's raining buckets or I'm sick in which case tram's the place to be in! It's winter in Melbourne, the sun had yet to show its face and so it was absolutely freezing even though I had two layers of woolen clothing and knee-high boots on. There was this moment where it started to drizzle lightly, so I put up my umbrella and then had to trawl through layers of fallen autumn leaves... and then inspiration whacked me so hard in the face that for a moment I failed to realize it for what it was.

In my yet unwritten Dark Lily, there's a scene about midway where Ashleigh walks in the rain... and until then I had NO idea why I planned to have that scene in there; all I knew was that it was supposed to be this turning-point for her.

When I was walking today however, it struck me as clear as a bell. I don't know how to explain it but I suddenly knew what Ash was supposed to feel because I started feeling it, I knew what she was supposed to think because I started thinking it. Then when I reached work, I snapped right out of it and went back to my normal, right frame of mind. I know, I know, it all sounds incredibly insane!

I don't know whether it's a writer thing but I can, on some days, just sit, stare into space, and let my brain wander away and become a totally different person. Sounds crazy? Wait, I forgot to say, I actually enjoy doing it. So if you think about it, I get all emo in two ways. The first scenario is when I get all emo because of my current life situation and the second scenario is when I get all emo because I've happily cast my brain out to go live in an imaginary character who is supposed to feel emo. Maybe that's why there's a little bit of me in every character that I write, if you look close enough O.o

Yes, I am a weird creature indeed.

Do you have any weird ways of getting inspiration? :D

Sunday, March 27, 2011

a little snippet

So I'm going on a little hiatus for the next month, before you bash me up let me explain.

My workload's phenomenal now and rightly so because the first draft of my research thesis is due exactly a month from today. I feel like I'm a juggler on a tightrope now, desperately keeping the little balls of "data collecting", "data analysis" and "writing thesis" in the air.

Since all my creative energies and time are being consumed for this, all WIPs I have are being put on hold until the first draft of my thesis is submitted. This will also be true for all my thoughts on the writing process or random pieces of writing, in that I will still get those things throughout this month because imagination loves to strike me at the wrong time, but I won't actually have the time to flesh them out and expound them further on this blog. They'd probably wind up floating around in my mind or being put down as bullet points on some scrap paper. :D

So with that, I'd leave you with what I've written so far for my WIP: Happily Ever After It's actually already gone through multiple edits in that every time I reopen the document with the intention of continuing the story, I read through the beginning, tweak it until I'm satisfied and only then do I start continuing the story. This has been a month's effort and I know that's slow but it's probably because I only manage to write it during moments where I'm free and energetic, and those moments are few and far in between. :(

Chapter 1

“When I find that little idiot …”


There was a pause as Gale threw herself belly first onto the cold marble floor and glared fiercely underneath the coffee table.

A yawning emptiness greeted her.

She let out a scream of frustration and hauled herself off the floor.

“I swear I’m going to lock him in the store room and throw away the key!”

Gale spun around on the spot and yelled to the whole living room in general.

“Do you hear me you little twat?”

A smile tugged at the corners of Haley’s mouth.

“Gale, I highly doubt Matt’s going to come out now that you’ve threatened physical abuse.”

“So? It’s only a matter of time before I find him! He can’t hide forever, he’s bound to get hungry and come out for dinner, and when he does … ”

She grinned.

“Gale.” Haley sighed. “You can’t terrorize kids into obeying your every command.”

Gale shrugged.

“Works like a charm when I’m babysitting my cousins.”

Haley laughed.

“That’s because they’re scared senseless at the mere sight of you. If I remember, little Lynn half-wetted herself when you first showed up at her mum’s place to babysit her.”

Gale frowned.

“Hey, you weren’t there how – “

“Harper told me.”

Haley spread her palms almost beseechingly.

“Point is, Matt isn’t like your cousins. While you manage to evoke a sense of deep-seated, primal fear of you in them – “

Haley grinned as Gale glared at her.

“Matt just stuck out his tongue and threw his PB and J sandwich at you when you yelled at him to hurry up and finish it.”

Haley gestured at the unfashionable blotch of purple and brown on Gale’s blue sweater

“So, clearly, your threats aren’t working, Gale.”

Gale grunted and threw up her hands in defeat.

“All right then, Miss Child Psychologist, do you have a better idea?”

“Maybe,” Haley mused, pursing her lips and tapping her middle finger on her bottom lip, “He might respond to bribery.”

Gale snorted.

“Right, we should wave wads of cash in the air and ask him to come get it.”

Haley laughed.

“Gale, he’s four. He doesn’t even know what he would do with the cash. No, I was thinking, we could give him an ice-cream if he comes out, there’s some in the freezer.”

And that's all there is to it, boys and girls! :D I actually wanted to write to the part where Harper shows up - oh you'd love him, I know I do! He's comical :D - but time is so not my friend. (sighs)
 
Wish me well with my thesis and I'd see you after April 27! Till then keep well, keep reading and keep writing :)

Saturday, March 19, 2011

part 2 :)

So as promised, here's the next chapter of the writing I posted up last week. I've been musing over the whole thing again and yeah, I think this piece of writing's gone to the grave for good. Elements of the scenes I've written may pop up in some other story but other than that, it's pretty much dead and buried. I've got to let it go, if I can't get inspiration to continue it, I won't force it!

Don't cry Siaw don't cry.

Haha, nahhh I'm not overtly emotionally attached to the thing anyway. :D

On a side note, I've read through it once and I actually think there would've been some things I'd fix up if I were continuing the story. Since I'm not however, here it is, exactly as it was all those years ago, unedited:

Chapter One: Encounter
Kristine clutched at her mother’s dress, peering between the folds of the soft material. What she saw had her gripping her mother’s garments even more tightly. She blinked desperately, repeatedly to get rid of the image that was before her eyes.

Not even in her dreams, or more appropriately, nightmares, had she imagined the scenario to be that horrifying.

No, not even in her dreams, she decided firmly, burying her tiny face into the light fabric that was her mother’s dress.

Something tugged on Kristine’s dress from behind.

Kristine’s face reluctantly emerged from the sea of periwinkle blue, tilting her head slightly in the direction of the tug.

The grin that was aimed directly at her was that of an evil demon, just like those grins and faces Kristine were hiding from.

With the loudest howl she could muster, Kristine pushed away from her mother with all her might and started to run away as fast as her little legs could carry her.

Startled, Kristine’s mother twirled around, suddenly acutely aware that her legs were no longer bogged down by an additional weight. She glanced down at the hem of her dress; the place Kristine was grabbing onto sheer minutes ago.

“Kristine?” she asked, tentatively, head snapping up; the conversation between her and her companion next to her coming to an abrupt stop.

An anguished howl, followed by a series of terrified screams came from several feet away.

“ Kristine!”

It was a shout this time, no longer a puzzled question.

“Mummy!”

The little girl, dressed in a simple lavender frock screamed again and put on a sudden burst of speed, hoping against desperate hope that she would be able to lose the one who gave chase.

She was absolutely terrified of – of it. Given, she had to admit, it was mean and cruel of her to label anything, or more precisely, anyone an it, but then again, the evil and horrible figure that tore after her could never be bestowed with the honor of having a calling that would denote its gender.

She howled again, turning her head slightly to watch her mother left behind in the dust it kicked up behind its feet. Her mother was starting to shrink into the background as she ran further and further away from her. The familiar figure draped in soft periwinkle blue was fast becoming a speck in the distance.

“Mummy, help!” she yelled at the top of her voice.

A few feet away, Kristine’s mum could only watch helplessly as Kristine ran, flailing her arms wildly as she almost bludgeoned into a little wide-eyed girl. Her hand swept up in front of her before she could realize and she stepped forward, as if to rescue her little girl, to calm her down when her companion’s arm shot out, grasping her hand gently but firmly before lowering it slowly back to Melody’s side.

“Melody,” her companion chuckled, reading her mind and noting the worry carved in it, “Don’t worry, she’d be fine. It’s just harmless fun. She’s not in any mortal danger.”

“But she sounds afraid!” Melody protested as Kristine’s screams rose a note higher. “She sounds like she’s going to – to faint if this reckless chase continues and – “

“Hush, Melody.” Her companion smiled easily and chuckled. “The chase is as what you said: reckless. Nevertheless, it will not harm Melody. Children her age are supposed to be chased or give chase.” She laughed, a fond look suddenly dawning in her eyes. “The times I used to have as one.” Her eyes snapped back into focus. “So, you must not worry, Melody.”

“But – “

“Melody.” Her voice was laced with a warning tone. “She may sound afraid now; maybe because she doesn’t know why she’s being chased out of the blue. But when she realizes that the chase is just for fun – “ Her voice trailed off and she smiled at Melody. “Let her go with an easy heart, Melody, my dear.”

Melody sighed, a small smile making its way across her face as she watched Kristine; it was a funny and adorable sight although Kristine was going through a possible cardiac arrest. Then she frowned a little, wondering why on earth her daughter was being so afraid.

It gave a small chuckle, and as if sensing Kristine’s distress, began to gain on her.

No, thought Kristine, eyes widening with horror, alarm bells beginning to ring in her head, Where’s mummy?

Kristine remembered her last encounter with it. Oh yes, she did very well. The picture that flashed through her mind was clear as the morning sky that floated cheerfully above her as she raced across the playground, avoiding the little girls that sat in a circle, poking at the flowers that grew in the centre –

It had been a bright summer day, just like this one. In fact, the similarities between this day and that day etched in her memory were so uncanny that it was too close for comfort for Kristine.

Kristine had been barely three at that time, happily skipping around in the meadows just outside the village. The meadows had always been her favorite place to play – there were always the happy sunflower heads which could be plucked and rattled; she would watch with glee and excitement as the seeds tumbled out every time, without fail. Then, if she were lucky, there were always dandelions to pick and blow. She absolutely admired and adored the way the graceful heads gave way to tiny propellers that would fly across the meadows, far into the distance.

On that day however, there had been no dandelions. So Kristine had, grudgingly, resigned herself to playing with the sunflowers.

Just as she had bent to pluck the stooped flower’s head, it had arrived.

The it she had seen on that horrible day was, she knew, different from the one that chased her with a relentless pace today. Given, they both had different colored eyes and hair, but Kristine hadn’t missed the way its eyes shone with evil and mischief, just like the way the current its eyes sparkled with now. Little girls’ eyes never shone with such pure naughtiness and mischief, only little its.

It had pushed her to the ground in the meadows with such force that Kristine had never had the chance to defend herself. Her little chubby face had met with the loosening soil helplessly, her arms flailing wildly with some sort of hope that perhaps their desperate movements would be able to stop Kristine from having her head stuck in the ground. It was all in vain nevertheless as Kristine not only found her head jammed into the crumbling soil but also her entire body as the little devil swept the feet from under her, cackling with glee.

Kristine had spluttered and spit out horrible-tasting mud and dirt, almost crying when she noticed the state her favorite play clothes were in: a hideously disgusting mess. She had felt the tears slide down her face and had even opened her mouth to release a scream but the scream was stuck in her throat as she realized that part of her throat had been clogged up with dirt. So she had been reduced to glaring daggers at the little devil as it sauntered away, snickering. She had wanted to rush after it then and rain her little fists all over its back but she had held herself back in fear that it would just shove her back down into the ground again mercilessly.

So she had stood there, glaring at it until it had faded into a speck into a distance. She had never known someone who could be so mean. After all, she hadn’t even disturbed it. She had merely been picking flowers. And it wasn’t as if the beautiful flowers belonged to it. Nothing as pretty as her beloved flowers could ever belong to such an evil thing.

When she went home, she had slopped mud all over the floor in such large amounts that her father had originally thought that the culprit for the mess was the buffalo from the farm across the street which had somehow managed to sneak into the house. Upon finding out that Kristine was the one at fault however, he had, remarkably, not scolded her but instead teased her.

“Kristine, why aren’t you a little devil now for bringing all this mud home?”

Despite the twinkle in his eyes when he said that, Kristine had been immensely horrified as the scary image of the little devil that had shoved her in the meadows flitted like a shadow across her mind at the mention of the word devil.

Not surprisingly, after the terrible flashback, Kristine had howled loudly and practically flew to her bedroom upstairs, leaving behind a very puzzled father and a very angry mother, who had been brought out of the kitchen by her daughter’s terrified howls; both of which didn’t know what had gotten into her and what she was so afraid of.

The memory flashed away as fast as it had come; it seemed to Kristine that the reminiscing had never come to her at all.

Her feet was pounding heavily on the ground now, sharing the same wild beat as her heart. Her eyes skimmed over a little girl who was happily playing with her rag doll on the green grass as she ran past.

Why is she not disturbed by it being here? she thought, puzzled, Don’t its terrify all little girls? And why doesn’t it terrorize her instead of me? Don’t little its pick on little girls?

Lost in her whirlpool of thoughts, her eyes lost their focus for a split second and in that split second, Kristine’s foot tripped over a tree root and she went flying forwards; she could almost feel her skin cry out in pain and indignance as she flung out her right hand to break the fall. Her head slumped forward and in the next second, she heard panting from above her and she knew that it had finally caught up with her.

She closed her eyes in desperation, in grim resignation as its face neared her, breathing heavily as it did so. For a sheer minute, she contemplated raising her injured right arm and whacking its head away violently; or perhaps even using her left arm to do so. But when she saw the crowd of little its that had begun to surround her, she was rendered motionless. Her mouth, which had also been deliberating whether or not to scream, hung open in mid-gape.

There were more of them? Kristine wondered.

“Tag! You’re it!” sung the it that hovered above her and she winced as its hand came down on her injured arm, “Sucker, you run like a baby!” it continued, bellowing and enunciating each syllable harshly.

Kristine gingerly lifted her right arm, and upon seeing the purplish bruises that were beginning to form due to the hard fall she had just taken, tears began to form in her eyes.

“Yeah,” agreed one of the its that was part of the ring that was now closing in on her, as if threatening to cut off her air supply and thereby suffocating her, “She screams and cries like a baby too! Did you see how she called for her Mummy?”

There were faint jeers overhead as a miserable Kristine tried to pull herself up into a more comfortable sitting position, careful to not let her injured arm graze against the root or the ground in the process.

“Mummy, mummy!” mimicked another it, admidst a chorus of laughter. “Baby!” it hooted with glee.

Kristine looked up at it, tears swirling in her eyes as she saw the unbridled joy that lay in its eyes; it seemed as if these its enjoyed making little girls fall onto the ground and cry.

Little monsters, Kristine thought, What’s there to be so proud of, making me fall and get hurt? Its must be miserable creatures to resort to this sort of – torture!

Despite the boos that echoed around her, Kristine turned to face the direction in which her mother had been in and felt somewhat better when she saw her mother starting towards her, walking briskly with a determined pace; her face anxious.

Kristine dragged her gaze away from her mother’s with an effort and looked down at her injured right arm as she felt a sharp pain shoot across it. She watched with horror as the skin on her arm finally broke, revealing a trickle of blood that snaked across her pale skin, leaving a hideously red trail in its wake.

“I said tag, you’re it!” shouted the it above her. “You’re supposed to get up and tag another of us.” It smirked. “Or are you too much of a baby to do so?”

At its words, and the pain that now coursed through her arm and the image of disgusting red blood on her arm, Kristine burst into tears.

“Baby!” taunted a black-haired it, “A little pain never caused any of us to cry!”

Kristen burst into renewed tears, cradling her right arm, trying to shut out their taunting when she heard a soft and kind voice.

“Stop it, Denny,” the voice said, “She fell down and she got hurt. Of course she’d cry!”

Kristen tilted her head backwards, raising her face, trying to spot who was speaking. She knew the voice belonged to an it, although the tone and manner of it sounded soothingly like her mother’s.

“Come on, Luc, we were just having a bit of fun! It’s just a bit of tag!”

Kristen’s eyes fell on her mother and it struck her then how much running she had done as she saw her mother desperately trying to close the vast distance that was now between them. Kristin had never been aware of how much she had ran or how large this playground was.

“It was just a bit of tag until you chased her and she fell and hurt herself.”

“But she kept screaming when she ran – “

“You scared her by tugging on her dress like that! And you chased so fast after her without an explanation; of course she was so frightened that she screamed! And, you had to tease her about being a baby when she fell and got hurt!”

The one called Denny opened his mouth in protest.

Luc shot him a warning look. “And don’t you dare tell me you wouldn’t cry when you feel pain! Pain with blood!” He pointed fiercely at Kristine’s bleeding arm.

Denny closed his mouth and swallowed his argument as Luc glared at him. He gritted his teeth angrily and then turning on his heels, left the playground, motioning for his gang to follow him.

As Melody approached the dispersing boys, Luc bent down and looked straight into Kirsten’s eyes. Kirsten recoiled slightly as Luc touched her injured arm gently.

“Are you okay?” He started to haul Kirsten up tenderly.

Melody watched curiously as Kirsten started to nod her head and then changed her head’s direction in mid-way, shaking it fervently.

Her liquid brown eyes remained locked with Luc’s emerald green ones.

“If you’re not okay now,” began a naïve Luc, “Then I hope you’d be okay when you see our teacher, Ms Bainbridge. She’s very nice.” Luc smiled warmly. “And she’d be able to help you with this.” He pointed at Kirsten’s arm.

“But my mummy –“ began Kirsten, whipping her head around, her eyes meeting with her mother’s. Melody let out an indistinct sigh of relief when she saw the color coming back into her daughter’s pale cheeks. She smiled at Kirsten and then nodded, signaling to Kirsten that she should follow Luc to see her new teacher. Kirsten’s chubby face lit up in a bright smile before turning back to Luc. “Never mind about my mummy.”

Luc returned her smile. “What’s your name?”

Kirsten’s warm smile turned into that of a shy one. “Kirsten. Kirsten Harper.”

She looked at Luc.

“What’s your name?”

“I’m Lucas. Lucas Thomas. But you can call me Luc.”

“Thank you Luc.” Kirsten smiled gratefully. “Thank you for helping me.”

Melody watched her daughter walk away with the little, caring boy, smiling to herself.

She stood watching the both of them for a few minutes, lost in the happy grin etched on her daughter’s sunny face.

She felt something brush her shoulder and looked up into the face of her companion, Ms Applewhite who had caught up with her and whose hand now rested easily on Melody’s shoulder.

“I told you she’d be fine.” Mrs Applewhite smiled, nodding in the direction of the two small figures that approached Mrs Bainbridge. “She was never in any mortal danger.” She winked at Melody cheekily.

Melody sighed, happy that her daughter would be able to fit into her new school well now that she had met nice Luc.

Mrs Applewhite, clicked her tongue in approval. She winked at Melody again, her eyes twinkling.

“She’d be right as rain.” Melody gave a small smile. “Now that she has such a friendly little boy by her side.”

“Indeed.” Mrs Applewhite remarked, chuckling. “I would think,” she paused in mid-sentence, her cheeks dimpling. “That this is a wonderful friendship in the making.”




Honestly, there's no prizes for guessing where I intended the plot to head off to. It's pretty darn cliched if I say so myself. :D

Have a good week everyone :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Because I'm too lazy to think of anything

Here's a piece of writing I found from way back in 2007! When I first wrote it, I only had the two scenes in mind, which ended up being two chapters ... and then my inspiration blanked out.

So not surprisingly, that's the state I found it in on my computer a few days ago. After all these years, I'm still clueless as to how to continue the story, I think it'd probably remain forever in my "uncompleted" pile. (wipes a tear from my eye) Nah, I know I should sort of be emotional about ditching my pieces of writing only after two chapters but I'm not really. Well, if this were to happen to any of my current WIPs - which it won't because inspiration for those is still happily flaring away despite the years that have passed with me lazing around lol - that might be a different matter.

Oh, and I must explain myself, the reason why I didn't update on Sunday was because I was out the whole day, and I can't figure out how the stupid Blogger automated posting works, grr. The fireworks I watched yesterday were so pretty though! It may very well have inspired a scene in one of my writings ohohoho, don't you just love it when that happens? Well I do so there! :)

Anyway, without further ado, here's the first scene from said uncompleted work. I'd post the second scene next week, feedback as always is welcomed!

Prologue
A soft evening breeze made its entrance into the garden, teasingly tugging on the curls framing the face of the lone girl who sat, her glistening eyes overlooking the blossoms. Delicate flowers adorning the crowns of the tall and proud trees in the breathtaking garden danced gently to the lilting rhythm of the wind. The crisp autumn leaves, strewn all over the garden, crunched under her feet as she absently wiggled her toes in them.


The wind came again; whispering its age old secrets into her ears, which were tinged pink from the slight cold.


But it wasn’t the wind; nor its interesting secrets; that commanded the girl’s attention.


It was the deep, still silence; the quietness that often preceded momentous decisions in one’s lifetime.


The girl clasped the gold locket tightly to her chest, breathing heavily and trying desperately to ease the pounding of her heart.


It was to no avail.


She stood up with an effort and trudged towards the gushing fountain, her fingers still absently stroking the rather tarnished surface of her little trinket.


The cloak of silence that draped the garden was slightly lifted by the rushing water of the Victorian-style fountain. The hairpin cracks and chips in the gray slabs of stone caught her eye yet did nothing to mar the fountain’s image of unparalleled beauty in her mind. As she drew nearer, she could feel the aching beat of her heart ebbing away. The aura of ancientness exuded by the old fountain somehow managed to instill in her a sense of comfort and security.


Perhaps that was the reason why she had come to this enchanting garden in the first place.


For the umpteenth time in her life, she stared deep into the eyes of her reflection; mirrored in the waters of the fountain.


As a child, she had always visited the fountain whenever she felt troubled. Things had pretty much remained the same even as she entered adulthood. The sense of warmth that the fountain, and only the fountain alone, could evoke in her had never faded. It had, on the other hand, probably grown stronger with the passage of time.


The girl that stared back up at her from the cool waters possessed the same penetrating, liquid brown eyes as her. As she shifted slightly to rest her arm on the fountain, the last rays of light managed to catch her pupils, turning that same liquid brown into circlets of dusky gold. She had inherited this unique trait from her mother. And those very eyes, coupled with her other aristocratic and delicate features, constituted a face that was often described as hauntingly beautiful.


The gold locket felt cold in her warm hands.


Sighing to herself, she slipped the locket out of her hand and onto the crumbling slabs of the fountain. The surface of the locket had dulled with time, just like all the feelings and memories that it bore.


She let out a shaky breath then pushed the locket into the waters gently and walked away, her head cast down.


The current caressed and carried the locket almost lovingly. The beautiful locket danced seductively on the surface of the rushing waters for a moment; as if it refused to be bogged down by the waters for fear of being lost to oblivion.


But special as it might be, the locket would never, could never defy great Mother Nature. And so it sank, floating ever so slowly towards the bottom of the ageless fountain despite its considerable weight. As the locket spiraled towards an undetermined fate, the delicate inscription carved into it glinted, deliberately catching the very last ray of light:


Two separate hearts

Melded into one

To span the widest oceans

And the rest of eternity

And then the ride was over. The locket now lay mournfully on the fountain floor, waiting patiently for the day it would be reclaimed.


The trouble was it probably never would.

I thought of posting both scenes up but I thought anticipation - if there is even anyone reading the blog lol - is always worth it, no? But mostly, the second scene is 6 pages of 10point font long, hence my decision of staggering it :)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

lookie here, look what i found!

So, like I said, Dark Lily has always been brewing at the back of my mind probably ever since I started medical school, and I'm now a fourth year meddie O.o

And after trawling through random documents in my laptop I have found the first ever draft I made of it! In fact, it's a halfway written prologue (looks proud of self) :D

When I first wrote the prologue, I only had a rough sense of who the main characters were, and for that reason it's a hastily written prologue. That doesn't mean I didn't spend heaps of time on writing it - if I remember correctly, I spent a whole night writing it instead of poring over my lecture notes (looks sheepish) - it just means that I got a major brainwave for a story plot, got excited and proceeded to put it on paper ASAP eventhough I hadn't actually fleshed out the stars of the story per se.

So in a sense, it's good that I only wrote the prologue halfway before I got busy with medical school because it gave me time to really start thinking through the characters. This in turn made me realize that the prologue and the sequence of events that I had currently plotted in my head wasn't going to bring out the tensions between the characters and their inner conflicts as well. So I scrapped the whole prologue - but thank goodness I didn't delete it in a fit of frustration like I did with another short story because now I'm trying to recapture the plot for said short story in order to rework it BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER IT ANYMORE! GAH!! - and went back to the drawing board.

So yes, presenting the initially planned prologue for Dark Lily before its rehaul. I guess the reason why I still keep it in my archives is because its writing style is different from that in high school i.e. the time when I was churning out one story a year. It also probably resembles how I currently write now; I'm not too sure on that since I haven't actually managed to make enough headway into the first chapter of Once Upon A Time to draw massive comparisons and conclusions.

So on that note, feedback is most welcome! :)

Note: The country of Valivya in this excerpt has now been renamed to Ventyn.

Prologue
“Never in all my life have I been treated thus!”


“Sir, I understand your concerns, but – yes, yes, don’t put down the phone, Sloath, keep dialing like your life depends on it because it does –sir, you have to understand that these things happen – “


The heavy and polished oak-panelled doors burst open, groaning under its weight and revealing a visibly shaking gentleman, flanked by a flustered, younger man clad entirely in black on his immediate right. Behind the pair, was a flurry of activity, undertaken by more men in black suits.


“No, Brent,” the gentleman snapped irritably, “These things are not supposed to happen because your duty is to make sure it doesn’t happen!”


Brent’s lips parted slightly, wanting to spit out yet another argument in his defense but then thought better of it and clamped his mouth shut.


The gentleman stopped and ran his hand once through his silver hair. It was an innate habit of his that he had never gotten over ever since he was a child. Then, he started to scuttle across the vast mansion, his chic black shoes clicking across the marbled floor as if he were a trained tap dancer. His companions almost fell over in their haste to keep up.


Brent tried once again.


“Mr President, sir, I know we made a mistake – “


“A potentially fatal mistake don’t you think?”


“But sir, we really thought that there was a bomb near the stage where you were standing, what with all the spitting and spluttering and all that gas and so we – “


“Decided to abandon me to the mercy of that lunatic who was trying to assassinate me?”


The president of Valivya turned sharply on his heel, causing those behind him to stop abruptly and glared at Brent. His eyes were bloodshot and his lips still quivering with fear from the aftermath of the attempted assassination.


Brent swallowed hard, cast his eyes downwards to the ground and wished that that it would open up and swallow him.


“Um, Mr. Brent, sir?”


Both Brent and the president turned to look at the man called Sloath.


“Yes?”


“Um well Mr Brent sir,” Sloath began, starting to feel uneasy and fiddling with the earphone dangling precariously from his right ear, “Mr Preston – um – that is the Director of the National Intelligence Unit – is actually already here.”


“In here?”


“Uh – yes, sir,” he continued, eyes totally focused on his immediate superior and refusing to spare the disheveled president a glance for fear of wilting under his increasingly intense gaze, “He’s already waiting in the president’s office. House security knew to let him in because I sent word ahead when we were leaving the campaign.”


“At least someone around here fully embodies his allegiance to me,” remarked the president dryly, his gaze shifting from Sloath to Brent, “He knows when he’s needed and comes right away.”


Brent managed a wry smile.


The president firmly turned his back on Brent and started towards the spiraling stairs, leaving those behind him to cast furtive glances at one another, wondering whether they should continue following him.


“You fools can stay behind,” came the authoritative voice of the president, who didn’t even bother to turn around, “After all, I don’t exactly expect myself to be the target of yet another assassination from here to my office.”


There was a short silence.


“But you, Brent, you can come along. I have more to say to you.”


Brent bit his lip, deciding he liked the pain this caused better than that of another cold lashing from his boss. Then, he launched himself at the stairs with all the haste of a whirlwind.

~ Finito~
 
I shall continue digging through my archives now, I have a feeling I may start hitting rock bottom soon. Rock bottom being my really old stories, those written in high school. If I find any gems, look out for them next Sunday! :)

Sunday, February 27, 2011

What if?

At the time of writing, I seriously think the only parts of my body that aren't aching are my arms and thighs, which probably explains why I'm trying to sit incredibly still in an attempt to prevent further muscle strain and aches whilst typing this. Anyway ...

So another week goes by and time marches on regardless of how hard you beg it to stay. Believe me, I've - metaphorically - tried grovelling on my hands and knees and all it does is sneers at me and run away pft.

As a reader and a writer, I'm currently fascinated with the literary genre of dystopia recently though I can't exactly tell you why. So what is dystopia?

According to Wiki, which besides Google is my first online source for reference lol, "a dystopia is an often futuristic society that has degraded into a repressive and controlled state, often under the guise of being utopian. Dystopian literature has underlying cautionary tones, warning society that if we continue to live how we do, this will be the consequence. A dystopia, thus, is regarded as a sort of negative utopia and is often characterized by an authoritarian or totalitarian form of government."

Sounds a bit wordy or complicated? Well then, let me introduce you to Siaw Hui's abbreviated definition of dystopia ;) Simply put, dystopian literature asks the question of: "What if society decided to (insert blank)?"

Don't believe me? Well then, let's take a look at the story premises of dystopian novels - some of which I've read and some which I want to read. For this I shall enlist the help of my other good online friend, Goodreads :)

Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury asks the question of "What if society decided to ... ban books?"

Unfortunately, Goodreads doesn't have an English preview so I can't provide one -.- It's such a famous book though that if you don't mind spoliers, you could Wiki the plot :)

The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood

Goodreads summary: It is the world of the near future, and Offred is a Handmaid in the home of the Commander and his wife. She is allowed out once a day to the food market, she is not permitted to read, and she is hoping the Commander makes her pregnant, because she is only valued if her ovaries are viable. Offred can remember the years before, when she was an independent woman, had a job of her own, a husband and child. But all of that is gone now...everything has changed

Question: What if society decided to ... totally strip women of their free rights?"

Delirium by Lauren Oliver

Goodreads summary: Before scientists found the cure, people thought love was a good thing. They didn’t understand that once love -- the deliria -- blooms in your blood, there is no escaping its hold. Things are different now. Scientists are able to eradicate love, and the governments demands that all citizens receive the cure upon turning eighteen. Lena Holoway has always looked forward to the day when she’ll be cured. A life without love is a life without pain: safe, measured, predictable, and happy. But with ninety-five days left until her treatment, Lena does the unthinkable: She falls in love...

Question: Well frankly, there are two questions for this one. "What if ... love was a disease? What if society decided to ... forcefully implement its cure on all its citizens?"

Get my drift? :)

Dystopian literary works are all about a major something that changes society as we know it. In Fahrenheit 451, the major something was banning and burning books, the ripples of consequence in society? Equally major as well: book lovers and book harbourers become fugitives on the run from the law, people no longer read and engage in critical discussions that books give rise to, libraries are empty deserted buildings no longer housing books, "firemen" are no longer people who put out fires but rather people who start fires ... to books. Montag (the main character of the book) is a fireman himself.

Then we have a hero/heroine that rises to challenge the major something, the decision that society has made. In Fahrenheit 451, we have Montag who decides to challenge the logic of burning and banning books. In Delirium - which I haven't yet read by the way, since it's a novel that just debuted this year - Lena falls in love and I'm presuming, will now challenge the logic of love being a disease and being forced to receive a cure for it.

As a writer, I believe "What if" is a great question to ask when you're brainstorming about a new plot. It's also a terrific question to ask when you're planning character arcs and stories. It is the best question to ask when you're writing, period.

So for example, let's have a look at one of my current WIPs Dark Lily. Plot question? "What if ... someone decided to murder politicians in the Ventyn government?" For the character arcs and stories, believe me when I say that each character had at least one "What if"? question specifically asked to them. However, I can't reveal those what if questions because they are central to the story and each character's growth. So suffice to say, in general most of my Dark Lily characters are asked "What if ... you had a troubled past? Would your troubled past have repercussions that echoes into your present and future? How strong would those repercussions be?"
Coming back to the topic, despite all my fascination with dystopian literature though, I know it's not my strongest suit when it comes to writing. That may change as I grow older, but I can say, with a hundred percent certainty, for now it is not a genre that fits me. Why?

Well, for starters, the "What if?" questions that sets up any storyline I have are not exactly major changes to society as we know it. Granted, they are major changes to the main character life as he/she knows it and society may feel a bit of it, like with Dark Lily it's only logical that Ventyn society will be panicking  like any real-world society would when they discover some anonymous murderer is picking off their government officials, but really it still doesn't affect some random person on the street personally.

Case in point? Think about The Handmaid's Tale. If you're like me in that you're female, and if you were part of the society in The Handmaid's Tale, you'd be thinking: Oh crap! What's going to happen to me now? Who's my male master?" etc. etc. If you were in Dark Lily however, you'd probably think: Who's the crazy psycho killing those government officials and why is he/she killing them? Is it some foreign country trying to undermine our government for their purposes? Oh my gosh oh my gosh!" etc. etc. but you won't be thinking: Oh my gosh! What if the crazy psycho kills me? because you are just a random person on the street, said crazy psycho only targets government officials. LOL Well there is a probability that he may go even more psycho and not be choosy about his targets but that's besides the point :P

I think humans in general though, have a continued fascination with "What if?"s. They're not good questions to dwell on, granted, but there are still questions that we find ourselves asking once every now and again. "What if I didn't send him out to buy groceries? Perhaps he wouldn't have been hit by the car and will still be at home with me." "What if I had made my move on her earlier, perhaps I would have been her boyfriend instead of him." If you really think about it, life is made up of "What if"s, it's just how fast and how well we can get over it, dust ourselves off and say "Well, it didn't happen so I'd deal with it" and move on :)

Till next Sunday, I'd be off then!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

it's all but a memory

For the umpteenth time in months, I found myself wondering, "How did I even get here?"

Here where complete strangers were divulging personal stories that made my heart break, here where they cried openly while I sat and watched, my mind a complete blank.

Medicine had not trained me for this, in fact, I'd even go so far as to say life thus far hadn't prepared me for this.

Which brings me to my second question, "Why am I even here?"

Here where I felt like a completely useless git with all to say yet with nothing leaving my lips, here where I was a bumbling idiot trying to cleverly phrase my responses and questions.

Oh I'd had practice before I walked into these interviews, but they were with people who I knew and with people who shared madeup stories about their lives in response to my questions. They were people who, because weren't laying pieces of their past bare in front of me, weren't dredging up all the emotions attached to that past; and that was enough to make all my diligent preparations go soaring out the window.

Because how do I keep my face carefully arranged to be calm when my traitorous heart breaks into tiny pieces when I hear a painful story shared straight from someone else's heart? How can I not at least tear up when someone is sobbing unrestrained in front of me, when their pain feels so real that I could almost reach out and touch it?

As I sit there, watching numbly, my mind begins to run through the various options of what to say or do. My brain automatically cancels out phrases like "I understand/know how it feels like" and "It'd be okay" because at least medical school had taught me that they were taboo.

What about "It sounds like it's been hard"? I can almost imagine the reply being snapped back at me,"Yeah of course, it's hard, it doesn't take a freaking genius to figure that out!" and I mentally wince.

A quick thought flits through my mind, "If only I weren't in a professional setting, then I wouldn't be constrained by professional boundaries. I'd be able to react how I would in normal situations where I see someone crying." I would reach out and touch them on the arm, perhaps even allow my own eyes to grow wetter and allow my face to take on some emotion.


So, I find myself settling for a simple silence punctuated with sobbing and choking gulps of air, and when they say "Sorry", I smile in a hopefully comforting way and quietly say "It's okay", and I wordlessly offer them a box of tissues. My face, in the meantime, is displaying calm.

I think it's funny how the health profession emphasizes the need to care and to serve with a human touch, but doesn't allow the basic, core need of sharing human emotions. When someone gets angry because they've just discovered they've got a terminal illness, are we allowed to go "That's a sucky diagnosis, and yeah life sucks! This downright stinks!"? When someone griefs because their loved one has just passed away, are we allowed to just sit and grief with them?

No, it's always, "It's okay for you to show the emotion, not me. I've got to remain the calm, professional one". It's not necessarily a bad thing, because goodness knows, when a crisis happens and if everyone's being all emotional, who's going to be able to snap out of it and into action?

But it's just an observation, and I've got another one.

As I deal with more sessions, I find the task of detaching myself from whatever human emotion that person sitting opposite me is feeling easier and my reciprocation fades. I find myself thinking less and less about what to say and what to do, and instead settle into what almost seems like a routine (which I have described above). The pain being expressed feels less palpable to me, my heart cracks instead of shattering and easing a mask of calm onto my face becomes effortless; in fact I'm not entirely certain if it's even a mask anymore ... and I'm afraid.

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that human emotional connection that I share with them will dwindle and then, finally disappear, leaving behind a cold someone who no longer feels on behalf of others. It scares the living daylights out of me so much so I know there's a tiny part of me clinging pathetically onto whatever shred of emotion I still feel, deep down, when someone cries. Given, that shred is much smaller than what it was when I first had people crying openly but at least there's still a shred.

I used to not like clinicians who seemed cold and unfeeling, who didn't seem to share whatever emotion their patient was expressing. Now what if I become like one of them?

Again, it's not necessarily a bad thing but, it's just an observation.

Then at long last, I find myself at the end of all my sessions, everything's wrapped up in a metaphorically nice pink bow. I still remember the voices that were raised to emphasize a point in their stories, the jabbing of table tops - again to emphasize points, the tears that flowed freely or banked up under their lids, the voices that broke in sadness, the hope that rang loud and clear; but it's now all over and I realize...

It is all but a memory now. I'd never forget this experience that has taught me so much and made a magnificently deep impression on my life, but ten years from now I'd probably be looking back on it all and say, "Hey, I totally don't understand why I struggled with that, was I such an idiot?"
But just for now, let it be that point in time where I learned tons, of myself as a person and from the stories of these strangers; that I am a horribly pathetic person who emphatizes too much and am a bumbling fool who doesn't know how to navigate professional situations rife with human emotions ... and that life is what you make of it.

If life decides to throw curveball after curveball your way, learn to duck out of its way and hold on for that day when a straight ball comes into your court of play. Hold on and hope. Hope is a beautiful thing that is both fragile and strong; fragile because those who aren't holding on to it can easily shatter it but strong because those who hold onto it, find their strength to fight another day renewed. And when that straight ball comes into your court of play? It'd be the most marvellous thing ever and you'd appreciate it all the more.

And with that I shall end my writing exercise!! :D I actually spent almost 3 hours writing that, gosh, retraining my writing muscles are going to be way harder than I expected :S

Feedback - or even just thoughts on the topic - is most welcome and much appreciated! :)

Sunday, February 13, 2011

music and writing

So, the first Sunday of my new promise of: I shall update this blog every Sunday! And honestly, I almost failed. Oh dear -.- This is not a good sign.

Anyway, a quick update on all my WIPs (Works In Progress) - to know what these specifically are, check out the blog post before this. I've managed to actually start writing a tiny bit of Happily Ever After's first chapter, which is funny because I've actually not finished planning O.o Nonetheless, since the first chapter's about character introductions and setting up scenes, I doubt it really matters? Besides, whatever I've written needs to undergo massive editing since I wrote it in sketchy bits and pieces, in between intense research data collection and analysis. :D Why? Because inspiration always strikes me at the wrong time sigh~

So, one thing I love about the arts in general; be it writing, drawing, painting, cooking, music, movies; is that they have this ability to interact with one another and are able to inspire one another! :) I've been trying to figure out why, and maybe it's because art mimics life. I know everyone talks about life mimicking art but I think it works the other way too. One of the stories that have always remained with me is of a woman who wrote to tell the directors of Disney's Lion King that she cried when she watched the scene of Musafa dying because it vividly reminded her of the loss of someone dear to her (I think it was her husband?).

Anyway, back to my initial point. So when a certain work of art mimics life, it inspires other works of art because life itself inspires the arts. Get my drift? If not, read real slow... and if you still don't get it, please comment on this post and I'd get back to you :D

As a writer, I have never had a lot of other art forms inspiring my writing. In fact, between real life and other art, it's been more of real life that has spurred me to write more than other art. If you look especially at the later poems and stories I wrote, and knew my life at the time of writing them, you'd know what I mean. I look back on them now and the similarities between my works and my past are freakishly haunting.

There's only been a few of my pieces which have been directly inspired by other art. Like when the Lord of the Rings movie first came out, I went into this Fantasy and a group-of-underdogs-saving-their-world phase and attempted to write a story like that; which ended up being an epic fail. The world I created had so many loopholes in it that if it were to physically exist, it would collapse in on itself -.-  Then when I was first introduced to Egyptology I tried writing Egyptology/Egypt based stories without any further research (oh boy, wasn't the me back then such a genius?) and of course, that ended pretty badly as well. In fact, one of the stories never saw its ending, just like the Fantasy one sigh~

And the other was a poem, which was quite sad I remember, but at least that wasn't such a fail. I was inspired to write it when I read some scene from some story. It was a very short scene that wasn't super significant in the story and happened quickly but it particularly resonated with me back then. So a poem called "Wallflower" was born. :D

And because it wasn't such an epic fail, here's the link to read it lol: http://crystalaura.blogspot.com/search?q=wallflower

But after the Wallflower poem, there hasn't been other art inspiring my writing, especially not music, until now. I will tell you now, when I first listened to these songs, it struck a deep chord within me. Especially because the feel and their choruses describe Ashleigh (one of the mains in Dark Lily) perfectly! Her story, the choices she faces in the novel, her relationships with the other mains, everything! These songs, especially their choruses because that's what caught my attention intially, really allowed me to flesh her and her part in Dark Lily out whilst listening to them.

So without further ado, let me introduce you to the amazing Sara Bareilles and the aforementioned three songs! They're seriously fantastic; even if you don't have an Ashleigh living in your brain, I guarantee you, you'd at least feel something when you hear them :D

Hold my Heart - Sara Bareilles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rg_yHmvAbUg
Chorus:
Does anybody know, how to hold my heart?
How to hold my heart?
'Cause I don't wanna let go, let go, let go too soon
I want to tell you so
Before the sun goes dark
How to hold my heart
'Cause I don't wanna let go, let go, let of you

Breathe Again - Sara Bareilles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOwvpRZKR4I
Chorus:
All I have, all I need
He's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my life in his hands, and still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I'm left hoping someday
I'd breathe again

Gravity - Sara Bareilles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3mKQT08_rk
Chorus:
Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand
So tall, just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're onto me, and all over me

I know anyone who's not me will be like: Heh? How does all three songs relate to one girl? We-ll, I guess you shall find out when I write Dark Lily. Until then, feel free to guess in the comment box. Who knows? Maybe your guesses will be right or they might help me think about Ashleigh in another light, and if that change makes it into the story you will duly rewarded - with an acknowledgement :D Oh all right, and a hug if you want it :P

So yes, lesson of the day! Life inspires art, art inspires more art! Conclusion? Live and create art! Because both life and art is beautiful :)

Now for something I just randomly thought up lol:

Question of the day: Do you create art? If so, have your art been inspired by life or other art? Or are there just fresh out of your imagination?

Quote of the day: Everyone can criticize but not everyone can write, so write! Feel free to extrapolate this to any other form of art, e.g. everyone can criticize but not everyone can draw, so draw!

Till next Sunday, toodles :D

Thursday, February 3, 2011

it's been a while

Okay a while may not be the best description since it has been 8 months since I last updated - oh horror of horrors, whatever happened to my resolution to write stories the beginning of last year? (buries face in palm)

But it's been an extremely interesting and incredibly busy eight months; interesting because I've become so enamoured with real life human stories of extraordinary strength and resilience as part of my ongoing research year and incredibly busy because of my uh ongoing research year. Hah!

So yes, I've been watching the human spirit; if the past eight months of my life were a story I would say the moral of the story is this: imperfect as it may be, the human spirit can endure the harshest and cruelest of blows that it amazes me. So hopefully, after being regaled with all these fantastic stories, I'd be able to write stories that make people feel for the characters?

Anyway, I do believe an update on my writing life - or lack of it - is in order...

Works in progress (WIP)
I hereby define WIPs as writings that are actually being actively pursued. Though this obviously means writing the actual story itself, it also means drafting out storylines, creating the story worlds, ironing out loopholes, plotting character arcs, editing drafts... you get my drift. :)

WIP #1 Dark Lily (tentative name)
Expected type: Novel length

So this is the story that I've been raving on about in the last few posts lol. But to briefly resummarize...

The country of Ventyn experiences a political nightmare after the murders of two prominent ministers. As the crisis escalates to the point of crippling the nation, can a team of four young investigators beat their own mounting inner demons to solve the case in time?

If you want an introduction to who said four investigators are, there's a description in one of the older posts.

Current status: Partially planned, further planning and writing put on hold till beginning of June.
Character arcs and backstories completed. World building (including the justice system, political system etc.) of Ventyn and mystery details uncompleted.

I know it's cruel to leave people hanging on a summary! Actually, I'm assuming it's cruel. For all I know some of you might just be like: And why do I care? LOL But I'm just extrapolating my own reaction of when people leave me hanging on summaries :D

And I say beginning of June because I seriously don't have the brain power to finish the planning especially since I'd be crafting the entire country of Ventyn from scratch! Hopefully after my research thesis is completed, the bulk of my brain power will be freed! -.-

But fret not! Let me introduce you to my other WIPs who have sort of cut the queue on Dark Lily in getting written. :D

WIP #2: Tipping Point
Expected type: Short story

Can we ever put a finger on exactly when we fall in love? Does love happen because of that one unforgettable moment in time that shone above the rest? Or does love happen as a slow buildup; where something finally tipped the balance in favour of love...

You know, the funny thing about this story is that it came out of nowhere. Literally. It arrived in my head as a premise of: Can anyone ever tell precisely when they fall in love? And with the opening story line: "You've got cooties!" :P

Current status: Partially planned (and within a week I'm proud of myself!), planning continuing. Writing to start shortly after.

The story will be told in a series of short chapters which, fingers crossed, turns out to be heart warming aww sweet, not sickly cheesy sweet. There's a difference. And hopefully when I'm writing I'd know how to delineate said difference -.-

Also, it'd be lighter and brighter compared to Dark Lily. The inner demons and character arcs they go through in Dark Lily is honestly something I would never ever wish on a living being. Never ever ever.

I'm treating Tipping Point as a writing exercise in romance  since that has always been my weakest link in writing. Other than physical spatial descriptions. Both might have something to do with the fact that my spatial imagination is glaringly retarded and I hardly read romance.

WIP#3: Happily Ever After (tentative name)
Expected type: Medium length - novel length

Babysitting is turning out to be worse than Gail, Haley and Harper had imagined it. The plan was to earn some extra cash, not to survive in a world of fairytales gone wrong. Now, to get back to their world, they've got to discover how to reinstate happily ever after endings...

So yes! I'm planning for this one to be a light, humorous read. It will not be a fairytale parody, which I reckon has been a bit overdone these days. It will be my first attempt at writing humour so I do not exactly know whether or not this story will fall flat on its face because the wit turns out being lame. Oh dear (face palm)

This idea has been floating around for a bit - probably almost as long as Dark Lily - but it never really materialized until recently. Again with the opening line: "When I find that little idiot ..." ;)

And really, that's about it! Well, there are two other ideas which I call Backburners (BB for short) - because that's exactly what I do with them. I put them at the back of my mind and let them burn until they're a bit more mature in terms of plot and characters before I upgrade them to WIPs and work on them actively :)

One of the BBs is a little more developmentally advanced than the other - it's tentatively named Cursed. The reason why I say that is because I've actually pinned down a premise for Cursed unlike the other BB. That said I haven't figured out the major plot arc yet but when I do you'd be the first to know! :)

And the other BB will be something set in high school ... and I do not know anything beyond that lol.

So yes! Watch this space for updates on any of these stories; Tipping Point will probably make its debut first followed by Happily Ever After and then Dark Lily. And we'd see what'd happen with the two BBs.

I used to be able to work on multiple stories together (and I'm contemplating doing that for Happily Ever After and Dark Lily to speed things along) but I'm not sure whether I'm able to switch between dark and light that easily. In the past my stories were all happy-happy-joy-joy so switching between them didn't really impact the writing style.

Anywho, they'd all be posted on Fictionpress - I will blog with the link once any story becomes available and then again everytime a new chapter gets uploaded. Remember to review when it happens! :D

I have also decided to update this blog every week (on Sundays except for today) with something writing-related. So the posts will either be about writing in general, my writing journey or my random writing pieces. So when I say random pieces I mean not full, at least once-edited stories (those go on Fictionpress) - I mean writing exercises e.g. me describing a scene, an experience I have etc. Feel free to unleash honest feedback and your opinions on any of my blog posts!

So until next Sunday, keep well and for those who love writing, keep at it! For those who love any other art form, keep at it too! :D